More light!

Sudden flash of creativity last night. An idea presented itself, and it looks like KS is going to take a turn I really didn't expect. Looks like it might almost get something like a plot (yes, in chapter 12 ... which is not surprising, since I'm not all that interested in plots). I managed to write an additional 500 words just now, but since I haven't decided yet in what order the scenes I've written and the ones I'm thinking about are going to happen, half of what I've written so far might just end up in a later chapter. The new turn of events will force me to have Drizzt find out much earlier just how close Artemis and Zak really are, and I have been looking forward to writing that scene ever since I started the story. However, first I will have to write a scene with Artemis, Zak, Drizzt and CB, which is going to be a pain because 1) I'm no good at scenes with many people (i.e. more than two), 2) I hate to write Drizzt, 3) I have no idea how to write CB without shameless character bashing. She deserves it, but I don't want to overdo it either. Still, things are moving forward again. ^^

Still fighting against this damn KS-chapter which apparently doesn't want to be written. I'm still a thousand words away from my minimum word count for a chapter (3500), what I've written so far is only average, and I am getting increasingly desperate. I just don't know what to write. The whole thing is not made easier by a sort of inflammation (to simplify) I have in my right wrist and which means that I am supposed not to use my right hand, i.e. I can barely type. In addition to that I signed up for a TPM ficathon and have to write a ficlet in the next two weeks, I am for some bizarre reason intrigued by another weird pairing (Dooku/Mace) and my mind is constantly trying to find an in character way to get them together, I am hopelessly neglecting university about three weeks before my exams ... and, well, in general, the longer you wait to write a chapter, the more difficult it gets. You may expect Artemis/Zak-fluff, scheming drow, Drizzt-torture, a bitchy Artemis, and deus-ex-machina Jarlaxle (what would I do without him? ;)). I just don't know in which order. If anyone finds my creativity on the street, please send it back to me. -.- Oh, AND I'm being distracted by reading Good Omens fanfics. I just read the book (finally!) and characters like Aziraphale and Crowley and their slightly suspicious "friendship" are just begging for slash. How can anyone expect me to be productive under these circumstances?
And I really sound whiny, I know.

I know, you're all incredibly excited about this. In the improbable case that anyone cares, my Dooku/Qui-Gon one-shot Worth The Wait is now finished and posted. It's still not quite the way I wanted it, but I don't think I'm able to make it any better at this point. New fandoms are always a pain to write, and hopefully the next fics will be easier. Not to mention that livejournal almost drove me insane. I spent about an hour just to post the story on two lj-communities, because for some reason the editor kept screwing up the file. Gna. Now I'll just have to wait and hope for feedback, although I should probably be happy if anyone reads this at all. Rare pairings really do have disadvantages. Like the fact that pretty much nobody is interested in them. If only I could convert some people ...

Now, from tomorrow on my attention will be focused on the next chapter of Kindred Spirits. I'm very determined to get that finally done. I can only hope that I won't be distracted by a certain Jedi Master and his padawan, whether grown-up or not, doing naughty things in my head ... *sigh* I could use some Jedi discipline right now. ;) Or Zaknafein kicking me, that wouldn't be bad either.

Oh, and I also watched a few TNG episodes today. I had completely forgotten how much I loved Star Trek once. And I can't believe how canon-slashy Picard and Riker are ... I mean, I'm not really into the pairing because I find Riker terribly unattractive, but still, they're virtually flirting with each other in every episode. It's scary. Tsk.

One last thing, I just have to say it ... "So fern so nah" is THE Qui/Dooku song. I can't really translate the lyrics because they sound awfully cheesy in English, but let me tell you that they make you think that Bodenski (Subway to Sally's songwriter) sat down and said, "I am going to write a song about Qui-Gon and Dooku and their (very slashy) relationship." Seriously.

Yay! I just finished the first draft of the Dooku/Qui-Gon fic I've been working on. It's a pretty long one-shot, it really reads like a one-shot, but somehow it's just screaming "I need a sequel!" That doesn't matter for the moment, though, first I want to finish this story before I think about a sequel. New fandoms are just incredibly difficult to write, and they make you wrack your brains over every piece of dialogue and every gesture because you don't feel entirely familiar with the characters yet. Every sentence makes you think, "Is this in character? Would he do that? Would he say that? Would he use these words to say it?" Not to mention that I agonised over writing the smut scene, as usual. But most of the work is done, and I don't think it's all that bad. Still needs some more work, though. And a beta reader who can give me some objective feedback. Because I'm so taken with the pairing on one hand, and completely paranoid and insecure about my writing on the other. Not quite sure whom I should ask. Mhm. I'm excited. I'm always excited when something I've written is slowly reaching completion. I'm excited and nervous and I want to ask everyone I know what they think about it because I'm scared of posting it. I always feel like that, and a new fandom just makes me more nervous. Argh.

For those of you who want to hit me right now because I'm "cheating" on my fandom ... Don't worry, I finally have an idea for the next KS-chapter (and the worst thing is, it wasn't even my idea ... how I love all those people who listen to my fanfic babbling and give me ideas ^^). I'm not sure yet how exactly it will work out, but I'm finally motivated again to continue writing. Once my one-shot is done, KS will have me back for the next chapter. Promised.

So. I just had to get this off my chest, because I really spent the past days completely obsessing over this story, and it's always such a relief to have a first version. It makes you feel like the story itself is finished and all you need to do is some revising. Conveniently forgetting that revising is just as difficult. ;) And now that I've stolen some of your time I'm finally going to do my homework for my boring translation class tomorrow. ;)

Oh no. Four months of freedom have come to an end. My classes started again today. So far it was okay, nothing too remarkable. I am really curious what my other classes and teachers will be like. But then again, even the horrible teachers are usually nice and not too demanding in the first week, so I'll just have to wait and see. More detailed updates on my classes next week, I guess. I'm kinda nervous, and - worse - I know that I'll have a hard time adjusting to university again. At least I only have to get up early once a week. Since I am not a morning person at all ... that's a good thing. ;) And I suppose it's also important that I finally get back to university again. I was really happy these past few months, but I'm also getting increasingly frustrated with myself. I had so much free time, and I didn't do anything. I didn't read much, I hardly wrote anything at all, I didn't start to take piano and tango lessons again like I had intended (but I will ... hopefully). Strangely enough, I only do these things when I don't have the time to do them. When I have free time, I'm lazy. When I'm stressed, I get creative. So ... with a bit of luck there might be a fanfic update in the next weeks, now that I don't have much free time anymore. ;)

I really want to write the next KS-chapter, but except for a lot of the obligatory Artemis/Zak-fluff, I'm still not sure how to continue right now. More angsting for Drizzt and Zak? Sure, but I don't want to focus too much on Drizzt's point of view. So what am I supposed to do? Write Drizzt angst from Artemis' point of view? Or Zak's? Might just be interesting ... because Drizzt angst alone is unbearable. I'm also seriously considering bringing Kimmuriel and Rai'gy back into the story. Everything is going too smooth right now. And sooner or later I'll have to give Artemis and Zak something to argue about ... i.e. the fact that Artemis hates Menzo and that Zak hates the surface. Which is slightly annoying if they want to live together. ;) But I just don't know how to do all of this, and in what order ... Gna, it's frustrating. I'm open for suggestions, if you have any. ^^
My ongoing, extremely disturbing Star Wars infatuation eating up what little bit of creativity I have at the moment is not helping. At least I won't ever be tempted to write any Qui/Obi - there are (fortunately) so many fics about them that I feel like everything has already been written, and every fic I could possibly write would probably be stealing ideas from at least three other fics at the same time. So I just waste my time reading about them. ;) Unfortunately, though, another pairing has crept into my mind ... And there are virtually no Dooku/Qui fics, it's unbelievable. A couple of gen fics about them, and the few slashy fics that exist are really weird and insane, in a bad way (at least the ones I've found so far. maybe I just haven't found the good stuff yet). The poor guys are almost as neglected as Artemis and Zak. Ah, the temptation ... *sigh* But knowing my own laziness, I probably won't write anything about those two either, just as I still haven't even started to write any Rose of the Prophet slash. I definitely need someone to kick my ass and make me write again. Any volunteers? Because I really feel like those two deserve a good, slashy, part fluffy and part angsty fic (and I mean the good kind of angst, not a simple "omfg Dooku is soooo evil he does bad things to his poor lil padawan!"). Yeah. Because they are fluffy. You don't believe me? Most people would probably argue that Artemis/Zak or Gromph/Dantrag aren't fluffy either ... Well, they're all wrong. Strangely enough, it's the tough guys who can get really fluffy if you let them. Again, I mean the good kind of fluff. ;) I'm not making any sense to anyone but myself, am I? I really need to get my ideas straight if I want to write something. I'm just insanely in love with that pairing right now. I apologise for the rant.

Oh, and the really really good news. I FINALLY finished that horrible translation I had to do. 100 pages with the probably most boring text I ever read, and I had to translate it from German to French. It took a lot of time to do it because every page was a real pain. But it's finally done, and now I only have to think of the money I will get. And as much as I hated doing it ... I don't regret it, thinking of all the stuff I will be able to afford now. Not sure what I'm going to do yet, but I have no doubts that I will find something to spend the money on. ;)

So, I made up my mind. From April on I'm going to study at the Humboldt university. It happens to be the one that is much closer to where I live, and I had strictly no reason at all to choose the one farther away. I still have to talk to a few instructors to know which classes I have to take and which not (since some of the classes I took in France will be accepted as a sort of replacement for the classes I usually would have to take in my course here in Germany). But it looks pretty good so far. I'm almost looking forward to next term, and it looks like I'll have a few hopefully interesting classes. Anyway, I'll probably be horribly disappointed.

Mhm, still no writing. I can't really focus on Forgotten Realms at the moment. My little Star Wars infatuation is only getting stronger, and I can't get the slashy characters from Rose of the Prophet out of my head (I'm just saying ... a handsome, very passionate, wild nomad, and a cool, disciplined Black Paladin who is almost as awesome as Entreri ... who happen to be blood brothers, and the sexual tension between them is mind-blowing ... okay, I'll calm down). Oh yeah, and I'm really kinda obsessed with Liam Neeson right now. I finally went to the cinema again last Sunday and saw Taken. The plot is pretty average (teenage daughter gets kidnapped, and her father - who happens to be a former CIA-agent, lucky girl - goes and rescues her ... yeah, kinda boring), but the movie is still entertaining. Liam Neeson kicks ass and is cool (and, of course, incredibly hot), and while that doesn't make an amazing movie you want to watch again and again, it's just fun. ;) Erm, yeah... whatever. I'm rambling again. Actually I just wanted to tell you all about the university decision, but apparently I can't write a single entry without at least a bit of fangirl squeeing.

Last week I got letters from the two universites I applied to, and I was accepted at both. Yay! That means I can continue my studies next semester (from April on). I'm really relieved. Now I just have to decide which university I want to go to. One of them is much closer to where I live, which is a big advantage, but I don't want to make a decision based solely on the fact that it's more comfortable for me to get up half an hour later in morning. I have about two weeks to decide, and I really hope that I will make the right choice.

I'm not writing much at the moment, unfortunately, with work and what I pretend is a social life taking up my time ... And I have a 100 page translation to do, and since I'll be paid for it I should do it as quickly as possible. So I don't know when you can expect any fanfic updates from me.

I actually wanted to reply to many many mails tonight, but I got distracted by reading fanfics ... I finally decided to watch the Star Wars movies again in the past few days. I was never a big Star Wars fan; I always thought the movies were entertaining, but nothing more. But I wasn't as obsessed with slash yet last time I watched them ... or else I would have turned into a mindless, squeeing Qui-Gon/Obi-Wan fangirl much earlier. I'm still not any more interested in the fandom than before, but that pairing is just perfect. I guess Liam Neeson is just too much for me. No man should be allowed to be that sexy. Unless I can have him. ;) Whatever, I feel like this entry is getting increasingly useless. I should get some sleep.

Finally! I finished and posted chapter eleven of Kindred Spirits. I'm so relieved it's done ... although I guess I won't be truly relieved until I get a few reviews and positive feedback. Still, it's done, so I can stop obsessing about this scene.

I finally started reading again, too. I read the first part of the Rose of the Prophet trilogy by Weis and Hickman in less than two days and I really love it. It is so unbelievably slashy ... You don't even need a slashy fangirl mind to see the slashiness in this book. I really like the setting, too: it's inspired by Arabian culture (desert nomads and all that stuff ;)), but still fantasy - so far there are only humans and no elves or something, but there are so called immortals (djinn, angels etc.) and the gods themselves interfere a whole lot. Did I mention that even the gods are slightly slashy? Honestly, what were the authors thinking? I'll probably rant more when I've read the other two parts, too. ^^ Still, I can already recommend it - interesting characters, a clash of different cultures, a nice fantasy setting, a good plot, slashiness, and unlike some other fantasy authors (*coughcoughSalvatorecough*) Weis and Hickman can actually write and don't make you cringe because of a crappy writing style. Exactly what a good fantasy book needs. ^^
I hope that once I've finished this series I'll finally be able to read other books again, too.

Apart from that, I'm sick. I'm cold, tired, puking my guts out and unable to eat anything at all. I know, too much information, sorry, I just felt the urge to whine a little. Well, nothing I can do about it. It'll go away.

Even if I had liked Drizzt so far I would hate him now ... I should stop whining, though. I think that the next KS-chapter is slowly getting acceptable, and I've accepted the fact that it will never be good. Prepare for a big disappointment, dear readers ... the chapter you've all been waiting for will be the worst of the whole story. But by now I think that it is be better to accept that, get it done, and move on, rather than spend another three months on it without making it any better. I'm pretty sure that the following chapters will be better. They can't be worse.

Unfortunately, my beta reader currently has a big computer problem (i.e. she has no computer), and I have no idea when she will be back. So I'm not really sure what to do ... I definitely need a native speaker to save me (and the readers) from the horrors of the stupid mistakes I sometimes make. Damn.

And in addition to all that, I'm getting increasingly frustrated with my own lethargy. For the past months I've been incapable of reading anything, and that even started before I dropped out of my course. I've started reading a lot of very different books, and no matter what I read I always lose interest after a while and stop reading. It's horrible. I finally have the time to read, and I have a bunch of great books at home ... and I can't bring myself to read them. I can't understand how that happened to a bookworm like me. Damn. Again.

Oh. I thought I should stop whining, not start ... Sorry.

Finally wrote a first rough draft of the next Kindred Spirits chapter. It's pretty long (5800 words), and I'm not sure if I won't take the last part out and put it in the next chapter. Either way it still needs a lot of work, I haven't even reread it once after writing it. I'll see about that tomorrow, I'm too tired now. Probably I'll hate it and decide to change most of it again ... But even then, a first version is done, and turning this draft into a proper chapter should be easier than writing the draft. Although it will still be insanely difficult.
Got a couple of ideas for the first chapter of Secret Intimacy, by the way. Maybe I'll write that when Drizzt is driving me crazy again. I want Kimmuriel and Rai'gy back, if only to steal Drizzt's screen, eh, page time. ;)

Arrrrrrrrrgh! I've rarely been so frustrated because of my writing. I really want to work on Kindred Spirits because my Artemis/Zak-love is stronger than ever (can't get them out of my head, it's scary), but Drizzt is killing me ... I just don't know how to write him in such a warped, insane situation, and keep him in character. I've never been very interested in Drizzt, I just don't know him as well as I do Artemis, Zak, or any other drow. I don't want any character bashing, despite the fact that I don't like Drizzt, but I want a realistic, convincing portrayal of his character with all his faults, and there are a lot of them. How should he react when he meets, at the same time, his arch-enemy, a man he hates and who has tried to kill him countless times, AND his father whom he loves and who was dead for decades? Especially since it becomes clear very quickly that those two men actually like each other (although Drizzt doesn't know yet to what extent ... *dirty grin*). It's driving me crazy. And even if I manage to write that scene, what will happen afterwards? Drizzt and Zak both think they love each other, and they're hoping for a happy father-son-relationship ... except that there is no way they could get along. Zak won't understand Drizzt's opinions, his principles, his way of life, his choice of friends ... and Drizzt will have to realise that his father is not the shining hero he wants to remember, but a definitely "evil", unstable, dominant and quite intolerant drow who has much more in common with Entreri than with Drizzt. Sure, the love a father feels for his son, and a son for his father, can help a lot, but it won't really make them understand each other. It's simply hopeless.
*sigh* Somehow this made me feel better. It didn't really help, though. Kimmuriel, Rai'gy, Berg'inyon and Jarlaxle together were easier to write than Drizzt in this story.

First, the interesting part. I posted the prologue of a new fanfic called Secret Intimacy. It’s about Rizzen and Dinin. It won’t be slashy immediately, but soon … Yay, more slashy Do’Urden incest! ;) I see it as a kind of companion piece to The Seduction of Innocence (to which I still haven’t written the epilogue, bad Linn …). I wanted to compare the two only father-son-relationships in canon, Zaknafein and Drizzt on the one hand, and Rizzen and Dinin on the other. Okay, there’s also Rizzen and Nalfein, but we don’t know anything about them (although Nalfein might appear in Secret Intimacy, but I don’t know about that yet). The only thing we know about Rizzen and Dinin is that in Homeland Rizzen seems to be very proud of his son, in an almost … human way. Zak and Drizzt, however, are most of the time convinced that the other one is an evil hypocrite, and they usually think about killing each other. I liked the idea that two more typical, “evil” drow might have a much closer and happier relationship than the two “good” guys. That’s also why Secret Intimacy is going to be a happier, less disturbing story than The Seduction of Innocence. So, even people who didn’t like my Zak/Drizzt-story might like this. Give it a try. ^^

As for Kindred Spirits … I’m still working on chapter eleven. There are two scenes in the chapter; the first one is as good as finished, but the second one (which will be longer and much more important) is very hard to write. I’m a bit stuck and don’t really know what to do, but I got a couple of new ideas a few days ago, so maybe I’ll finally manage.

I’ve also decided that the next scene of Anger will be about Dantrag Baenre, and I already have a few ideas. Yay for Dantrag! Gotta love him.

Now, the less interesting part, I.e. my real life … Just in case anyone wants to know, I’m back in Berlin. I decided to drop out of my course in Paris a month ago because … well, mainly because the course I was in was extremely stressful and difficult, and the reasons I had once had to go through that weren’t really valid anymore. I had no motivation to continue and I felt terrible most of the time, and it’s a difficult course in which you can only succeed if you really work a lot for it. So, I decided that it was better to stop … although I know that it was probably not the most reasonable thing I’ve ever done in my life. Anyway, I’ll just continue my studies here in Berlin, as soon as possible. Can’t possibly be worse.

This morning, at 6 am, I finished and posted the next chapter of Kindred Spirits . It's pure fluff, and reading it you'll probably wonder why it took me so incredibly long to write it. I don't know. I'll just try to be quicker next time. I'm already thinking about chapter eleven, but that doesn't mean that I will manage to write it soon.
Apart from that, life is crappy, as usual. Ah, well, I guess it could be worse.

Finally! I've finished the Gromph/Zaknafein one-shot I've been talking about for weeks. It's called On the Verge of Insanity, posted as usual on ff.net. Allow me to remind you that reviews make me very happy. Extremely happy even. ;)

Well, that's done now, so maybe I can, after this incredibly, unpardonably long pause, move on to the next chapter of Kindred Spirits. I'll keep you informed. Just in the improbable case that you care. ;)

Yes, I'm still here ... after my absolutely inexcusable absence of almost three months (not here on my livejournal, because I hardly ever use it anyway, but on fanfiction.net). I had two months of (very relaxing) holidays, and not only did I not do ANYTHING for university, I also didn't write. How pathetic is that? But somehow I had a big writer's block and no motivation. I started writing a Gromph/Zaknafein one-shot in July and didn't finish it. However, I'm determined to finish it finally in the next days, and hopefully get it posted quite soon. My classes started again three weeks ago, I'm already completely stressed out, drowning in exams and books I have to read ... and so I start writing again. It doesn't make sense, I know, but strangely enough I write more when I actually have no time to write. So, with a bit of luck, the Gromph/Zak thingy should be posted soon.

Mhm, I'm not going to bore you with what I did during the holidays (except that Vienna is magnificent! go there! it's so beautiful!) or with anything about my classes (except that my English teacher is amazing, and I fangirl him like hell ;)). More interesting might be the fact that I, erm, rediscovered Terry Pratchett. I first read Pratchett many years ago, when I was eleven years old or something (in German, because my English was crappy back then). So, our dear assassin_nariel gave me Monstrous Regiment a couple of weeks ago and told me to read it ... and I was a good girl and had nothing to do at that time, so I read it. Read, squeed and wondered why I ever stopped reading Pratchett. The man is a genius, and of course the original version is a thousand times better than the translation (although the German translation of Pratchett isn't that bad). So, I jumped on Going Postal and Making Money after that (so, some of the newer novels I hadn't read yet), and they might just be two of Pratchett's most amazing novels. That's where I discovered my love for Lord Vetinari. ^^ Gotta admire the man. I'm currently reading (respectively rereading) the Watch novels because Vetinari mainly appears in those. You may look forward to some Discworld slash which I will write and post ... I don't know when, but I will. ^^ *drools over Vetinari/Vimes and Vetinari/Drumknott* Just wanted to warn you. And, if you've never read any Pratchett, DO IT! I'd recommend Going Postal, and then Making Money.

And now I'm going to answer a few e-mails that are already several weeks old ... not to mention the reviews I've promised to write. I really should force myself to write reviews as soon as I read a story and answer e-mails immediately, otherwise I'll just put it off for weeks. Damn university for eating my time.

 

My, I’m so creative at the moment. *grin* I am proud to present [insert suspenseful theme music]:

A scene for Anger about Dinin Do’Urden (yes, I know, I posted that one a while ago)

The last chapter of The Seduction of Innocence (epilogue might follow, or not)

And I’m even happier to advertise the stories I’ve co-authored with Chi. Because they were fun to write, and I hope they're also fun to read. :D

The First Meeting (of Artemis and Jarlaxle, who else should it be? :P)

Taking Off the Masks (a Jarlaxle/Artemis scene set during Artemis’ stay as ‘Regis’ in Mithral Hall … slashy, fluffy, smutty)

Partners in Defeat (the sequel to Taking Off the Masks; set during Artemis' stay in Menzoberranzan after his fight against Drizzt; is going to be pretty much AU)

The Ambiguity of Trust (a looong story about Jarlaxle and Zaknafein’s relationship. Because even if RAS ever wrote that prequel, it would be crappy and not slashy. :P)

So … Do I need to beg and plead to make you all review? I don’t mind. Pleeeeeeeeeease. I’ll even try to make big puppy-eyes and everything. Don’t forget that I don’t have a life; reviews are my happiness. *grin*

Yay, five of my six written exams lie behind me! Now I've only my English exam left (which is tomorrow), and while that's the one I care about most, I know that it will be less difficult for me than the other exams. I survived in one week History ("Communism in international relations from 1918 to 1953"), French Literature (something about novels and morality, I'm too lazy to translate the whole subject), Sociology ("How can the role of the middle classes in French contemporary society be described?"), Maths (you don't want to know what that was about), and today Philosophy (with the "wonderful", short and complicated subject: "La servitude", which means about the same in French as in English ;)). Damn, I'm tired and I feel like my right arm is going to fall off from too much writing. But it's almost over. I still have classes in June, but no exams anymore, except for a couple of oral exams because my professors think that oral exams are soooo much fun! Yeah, maybe, if you're the one who's asking the questions.

I'm pissed off because my mp3-player died this week. I guess I shouldn't be surprised after two and a half years of daily use, but still. My poor money. *grumble* Not to mention that I won't be able to buy a new one before July, because I'm going to buy it in Germany, where such thingies are much less expensive than in France. I will have to find a new way of ignoring everyone around me. *grin*

Then again, I'm happy because I got many many nice reviews for the latest chapter of Kindred Spirits. :D I'm all the happier because I had so much fun writing it. I'm looking forward to writing the next chapter; I'll try to start this week, maybe even tomorrow. So many things to do. *hops around happily* Kimmuriel and Rai-Guy are making everything even more complicated, and I love complicated. In the beginning. I hate it once I have to get the characters (and myself) out of the mess again. ;) But I can promise you that I won't mess it up the way I did with Out of Control. I couldn't make my ... well, not my OTP, because it's not the only one, but one of my TTP (two true pairings ;)) ... unhappy.

Ooooh, and I've had another stupid idea for a one-shot. I was thinking of an alternative version of what happened in Coming to Terms, one in which Artemis can't accept what he wants. Just a whole lot of angst and denial and sexual frustration. I have no idea why I want to write that. It won't even have smut in it. Okay, nobody reads my stories for the smut anyway, because I can't write smut. Still. So, I have no idea if I am actually going to write that or if it is just another annoying idea that will leave me alone if I ignore it long enough. I don't know, would anybody be interested in reading something like that?
Other things to write, for those who are interested: thousand more chapters of Kindred Spirits (at some point, you are going to beg me to stop ;)), a Rizzen/Dinin-companion piece to The Seduction of Innocence (thanks to Ziggy for giving me the idea ^^), some Jarlaxle/Zak-stuff, a short Berg'inyon-Jarlaxle scene, and some day I might just continue Of Faith and Loyalty. *chuckle* It's not that I don't want to, but I don't know where I want to go with that story. And other stories are just more important to me right now.

And I found myself more music! :) I've been listening to nothing but Kurt Weill for a few days now. If you don't know who that is; well, to make it short, he was a German and later American composer (1900-1950), who is mostly known for writing the music to Bertolt Brecht's musical theatres (The Threepenny Opera, for example), but he has also composed many other things. And some of those songs are just so beautiful. *sigh* They make me want to start taking singing classes again. I miss singing. :(

Did you notice? I now have nice little images up there, mood theme thingy and everything. Muahahaha!

Erm, anyway. Went to the cinema today and watched ... Iron Man. Yes, yes, I know. But as I said, there are virtually no interesting movies coming out soon, and I heard from several people that Iron Man was nice ... Well, it isn't bad, if you like super hero-action movies. I'm not a big fan of them, but they can be entertaining, and this one was. Though there are better super hero movies out there (yepp, I love X-Men *grin*). I won't write much more because there's not much to say about the movie except that it's entertaining ... And Robert Downey Jr. reminds me of Hugh Jackman, at least in this movie. How strange is that?

Did I mention that it's getting too hot here? I hate summer ... Spring is nice, but sommer is unbearable ... Most people get depressed during winter, I get extremely bad humoured as soon as the temperature rises above 25°C. *grumble* (So, yeah, I'll probably be grumbling and growling about the weather for the next months.)

And now ... back to the next chapter of Kindred Spirits ... *evil laugh* I have to write a scene I've been looking forward to for some time ... It won't be easy to write, but I hope the chapter will be finished soon. It's been too long since I got reviews to boost my ego. ;)

Oooh, already three weeks since my last entry. My life must be incredibly boring. For others; I’m enjoying myself. ;) My holidays were great - I did absolutely nothing except spending time with my parents and with some friends, and watching seasons 3 and 4 of House M.D. (well, at least the episodes of season 4 that have already been released). With the unfortunate/fortunate result that I’ve spent the last week reading House/Wilson-smut … Ah, I had almost forgotten how incredibly hot Hugh Laurie is. And I don’t mean “he looks all right”-hot, but “I’d sell my soul to sleep with him”-hot.

Erm, anyway. The joys of a big fandom! Really, I’m not used to this anymore, not since I stopped reading Lord of the Rings fanfics some time ago. If there were even half as many Artemis/Jarlaxle, Artemis/Zaknafein or Ben/Charlie fics as there are House/Wilson-fics … I’d be so much happier. And I would spend even more time reading fanfics.

So, while my obsession with House is very entertaining, it also has its downsides (apart from the obvious one: I’ll never get what I want, but I’m kind of used to that). It means that I’m lazier than ever. I didn’t do anything for university during the holidays, and even since my classes started again on Monday, I haven’t done anything. (Please keep in mind that I have six important written exams in two weeks.) I haven’t even written the English essay I’m supposed to hand in tomorrow … but that’s also my professor’s fault, because she gives us so completely stupid assignments. *grumble* So, one more thing I’ll have to do this week-end.

As if the whole university crap wasn’t enough, there are absolutely no interesting movies coming out in the next weeks, unless I've overlooked one. If I believed in God, I’d say he hates me.

Mhm, but there’s also good news! I went to my tango class yesterday after a five-week-break (first my sprained ankle, then the holidays). It was great, there were only 10 people (I.e. 5 couples I.e. lots of space), and I managed to grab one of the two good dancers most of the time (the other three guys were rather clumsy). The fact that my feet hurt like hell after two and a half hours dancing on 10 cm-heels (I love my tango shoes, they’re very comfortable, but still rather new) was a prize I didn’t mind paying. ^^

AND I finally started writing the next chapter for my Forgotten Realms fanfic Kindred Spirits! :D I can’t tell you what will happen, I don’t want to spoil anything … But I can tell you one thing: I realised recently that I had to do something about Kimmuriel and Rai-Guy. The fact that Artemis and Zak are on the surface now doesn’t mean that Kimmuriel has simply given up his plotting, and Rai-Guy (and Berg’inyon, by the way) will play along gladly. I just don’t know yet what exactly they’re going to do. They can’t be too evil/cruel, because 1) Jarlaxle won’t let them, 2) I don’t want them to, because I don’t want Kindred Spirits to turn into a horrible angst party. Out of Control was enough angst for me for … some time. Kindred Spirits is supposed to be nicer. I want to humiliate Artemis and Zak, to annoy them, but not to torture and break them. I have quite a few ideas of what Kimmuriel and his associates could do, but nothing concrete so far. And even without them … Artemis and Zak won’t be bored on their journey. *dirty grin* If you happen to have any ideas on how Kimmuriel and the others could piss off Zak, tell me. ^^

I also found a House/Wilson mood theme somewhere on the internet; if I manage to use it I will do so. (See, Ziggy, my lj won’t be so dark anymore! :P) It’s not perfect, but I’m decidedly too lazy to create my own. Not to mention that some day I really have to prepare at least a tiny little bit for my exams. (Does anyone believe me? No. I can’t blame you.)

Enough useless babble for today. Hopefully I’ll update quicker next time. And now I’m off reading a few more fanfics before I go to bed. Have to make sure I’ll dream something nice tonight … ;) (I need to get a life, I guess. But real life is so boring and disappointing most of the time.)

Well, no, actually not. I'm exaggerating. *grin* It's not like I had THE idea that would make me write the most important novel of world literature since Thomas Mann's death, not like I became rich over night for some reason, not like I've found the man of my dreams or whatever. But the next weeks are probably (hopefully!) going to be less crappy than the past ones. Why? Because ...

- I'll be on a two weeks holiday from Saturday on, and I'll go home to Berlin. :D
- I won't have any exams for almost five weeks! (which is amazing, given that I usually have exams all the time)
- my ankle hardly hurts anymore (I sprained it two weeks ago).
- I feel like I'm having quite a few ideas for fanfics at the moment.
- I'm having a hysterical fit of music and especially jazz love, and that's always good. ;) Okay, I'm always in love with some kind of music, but it's extreme at the moment. ^^

Mhm, listing it like this it suddenly looks less great than I had thought, especially considering that I have some major exams in May, so I should be studying and reading a lot of books in my exam-free weeks. Still, I don't feel like being reasonable right now. So let's just be irrationally happy for once. ^^